Keywords: Lack of control and direction, aggression
It means that you currently feel lost and powerless because you have no control over opposing forces. It may also suggest that you crumble under pressure. Instead of worrying about things you have no control over, focus your energy on what you do have and work to change the situation.
You may feel hopeless because there seems to be no future in this relationship. You might even seek a break, even if it's just temporary. Recognize the issues between you and try to find a solution that works for both of you.